Therapy and Moving On

T went really well today. I feel like I accomplished more than I have for awhile. I got in touch with some feelings that I have been needing to get in touch with. He gave me an assignment. I have to answer a question. I have no idea what I will answer. It is one of those things where you have to seek the answer...as in I need to pray and ask for help.

I think I also made a decision today...to find a way to get out of here. Being in this place is holding me back in some things...and not just me. It is time. We did what we came here to do. It is time to move on...or perhaps...to move back. I don't know. Where are we supposed to be? We are praying for wisdom on that one.

I want to be in a place where I don't have to couch what I say to others. Where I don't have to be concerned about someone else's job...although he says not to be concerned. He says to be me. Yet, that is hard. I don't really feel much freedom to be "me"...not here...and maybe not anywhere. Well, there is one place where I think I would feel it...but he does not want to go there. It would take an act of God...literally. So, I must let go of that desire. Although, I still hope it will happen...but I must not set my heart upon it. I must let go of that dream. If it is meant to be...He will bring it back...in reality instead of in my heart.