Mother's Day and Changes

This is typically a difficult day for me. There are several reasons. I know it is difficult for many others, too. My mother's birthday is close to this day and on some years, even falls upon this day. I love my mother. I wish we could be close...but that is just not possible. She is not emotionally safe for me. Neither is my father. And they may not be physically safe, either. I don't really know. But now that I know what I know...I may be considered a threat to them...at least in their eyes. I wish them no harm. I just want to live in peace with others so much as it is in my power to do so.

In fact, my desire to live in peace is causing me to think about making some changes in my life. I have been sensing that Yahweh has been calling me to do this and I have been dragging my feet. Oh, there is always something that comes up that seems like a good reason to wait. But now I am seeing the folly of waiting. If I am supposed to change something...it is best to do it right away. Otherwise...there just might be some consequences as Yahweh allows some things to happen to nudge me in the direction He wants me to go.